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“When I used to read fairy tales, I fancied that kind of thing never happened, and now here I am in the middle of one!” 

Lewis Carrol

Hello, and welcome to Jessi’s 30 Before 30 Bucket List! I’m not sure how you found this page, but if it was by accident, I’m sure you’re thinking: “WTF is this and what am I doing here?” Well, that’s where this little blurb will come in handy:

  • I’m Jessi, which thanks to modern times, is all I’m going to disclose right here!
  • I’m a 29 years-old, born October 6th, 1990 (Libra sun, Taurus moon, Capricorn rising)
  • Born and raised in Kansas City, MO and recently (September 2018) moved to Sacramento, CA
  • Operations Engineer (behind-the-scenes) at a local television station
  • Corgi mom to Tails, who was named after Tails the Fox and also does not have a tail

Of course, if you decide to stay with me on this journey, you’ll be learning so much more about me personally. As for this list, that’s a whole different chapter of my life that started a couple years ago when I was still living in Kansas City. My best friend, Kat, and I were planning a trip to Southern California. While trying to figure out all the things we were going to do, our list just kept getting bigger and since we really were mostly just being best friends shooting the shit, she told me about the 30 Before 30 Bucket List she had heard of. Just 30 things you really want to do, before your 30th birthday. Technically, this list started then and if I stayed on that particular list, I would already have a couple things checked off. When rewriting after my 29th birthday, I felt it wasn’t fair to keep the things I already did and to just replace those few with new goals. Some things are things I’ve always wanted to do, and some are more recent goals, while some are things I just really need to get done and having them here really makes me accountable and more inspired to get them DONE. Having a Bucket List in general is inspiring to me to keep on living, as morbid as it sounds. I want to be excited for the next chapter of my life, which I believe will be my time to shine. Growing up is a weird journey, and it isn’t always the best or brightest, but it is always worth it.

So, welcome to my 30 Before 30 Bucket List. Welcome to this year of my life, and welcome on the journey I’m about to take. I hope you feel inspired to make a similar bucket list if you’re almost 30, or just to start on any bucket list item at any age because it’s never, ever too late.

learn Japanese I’ve always wanted to learn a second language, but I never paid much attention in high school Spanish because I actually wanted to take French and ultimately, Japanese. Japan has been a dream destination of mine ever since America’s Next Top Model: Season 3 when Tyra Banks took the girls to Japan. I just happened to be at the height of my teenage anime phase so the timing was perfect, but seeing the country through the current culture at the time really cemented my love of the country then. I hear Japan is a very English friendly country, but not being completely lost in translation when I finally get there would be ideal.

learn ukulele As a kid, I really wanted to learn how to drum. So, I was handed down my sisters saxophone and when my jackass self said “ew gross I want a COOL instrument”, I was finally enrolled in… guitar lessons. I wasn’t too bad, but I also thought I could get into sports. (There are a lot of things I facepalm really hard at looking back on in my childhood that was super cool, but I stopped doing because I thought being on the basketball team was more important. But, I digress.) Now that I’m living on my own and no longer have my guitar, I do have a ukulele and all the desire to finally learn an instrument to go along with my audio skills.

learn to sew To be more specific, Learn on a Sewing Machine. My hand sewing could use some work, of course, but asking me to make the same thing with my hands vs machine will yield VERY different results. I ordered some merchandise from my favorite band, blink-182, that included underwear and it was just… so much smaller than any normal pair of underwear should be for adults. So, I did what any normal person would do: cut the crotch out and made a purse out of them. It gave me a great idea for a line of underwear purses, with a Toms-like initiative to donate a pair of underwear to those in need with every purse bought. However, I’ve come across a huge snag in that process: I don’t know how to use a sewing machine. By October’s time I’m hoping to be fluent enough to have some purses started, but the main goal for the sake of this bucket list is to add an elastic band onto a shirt I’ll crop.

get a Zoom recorder I graduated college with a major in Broadcasting, emphasis in audio. The main love of my life is doing live sound work for bands, but any environment with an audio board usually makes me pretty happy. The purpose of the recorder is listed later in this list, so we’ll leave this for then.

headshots I was bullied pretty mercilessly, and it gave me extreme self-confidence/-esteem issues growing up, and now that I know I’m incredibly good looking, why not try to make other people see it?

go blonde I’ve been almost every single hair color you can think of. I’ve never been blonde longer than a couple days because I didn’t have the right dye for the main color I was going for; it’s also never been bleached properly, so this process will be long for my dark brown roots.

mystery tattoo I have so many tattoos that I know I want, that it’s kind of overwhelming. It only makes sense to get a tattoo that you don’t know what it will be, doesn’t it?

finish back tattoo I started my back piece last January and only had one other session on it last year. Since I was planning on being further along in the process by now, I’m putting it on the list to make sure I get it done.

skydive I have to do something that completely terrifies me and risks my life, right? Right.

fun run I hate running. I despise running. There is literally anything else I’d rather do, than run. Yet, for some reason, telling me that I get to run through colorful bubbles that will dye my clothes and skin? Fine, let’s run.

hike a mountain Growing up in Kansas City, MO meant there weren’t many opportunities to go hike a mountain. The few times I’ve been to Colorado, we drove on the mountains instead of any type of walk/hike, so now I feel is the time to actually walk myself up a mountain because nature is neat.

Las Vegas rollercoasters One of my earliest memories is being at Disney World with my family, but I didn’t like roller coasters then and I cried the entire time on Tower of Terror. Now, I LOVE roller coasters and if I had the opportunity to ride every single roller coaster ever, I would. Since I’m not sure if I’ll have that luxury, let’s go on the ones in Americas Adult Playground.

San Diego Zoo As a vegan, I understand that I’m supposed to hate zoos, but to be completely honest: I’m still very torn on zoos. The San Diego Zoo has been a place I’ve wanted to visit ever since I was a child, and if I was better at math and science I would have tried to become a zookeeper wanting to work here. This will probably end up being the last zoo for me, but since it’s been a goal since my childhood and it’s plausible with me living on the West Coast, I have to go.

meet a sloth Sloths are on my list of top favorite animals and there is nothing I want more than to hold one.

surf lessons There aren’t any oceans in the midwest.

pole dance workout I fully believe sex workers are some of the hardest working members of our society due to the nature of their work and the harassment they receive from people outside of the community. Before I digress again and send this list in a completely different direction than any of us were thinking, I have heard (and honestly, haven’t we all seen?) that the Pole Dance routine is the best workout routine. The amount of strength, from your legs to core to upper body, needed is absolutely insane and I would honestly think that alone should give them the respect they deserve.

visit animal sanctuary Being from the BBQ Capitol of the world, I grew up eating a LOT of meat. I went vegan for a weekend for a friend, and since then I’ve never been able to eat red meat without getting sick again. It’s now turned to fully plant-based, and I’m honestly very proud of myself. That being said, I need to kick my own ass and say sorry to these guys who thankfully got saved.

get Final Cut Pro & Logic Pro These are EXPENSIVE programs that I’ll be saving up for, but knowing that I have them for myself and can do more editing that I can with free programs makes my heart happy.

escape room Usually the thought of working in a stressful environment in a small room with multiple people while being timed gives me anxiety, but just like the Fun Run, I feel like adding a theme to it makes it all better.

San Francisco CorgiCon My corgi, Tails, is the love of my life. She really is the Tails to my Sonic, but I haven’t really been able to travel with her. She turned seven at the start of December, so I think taking her to the San Francisco beach to play with other corgis would be perfect for us both.

CUPPING THERAPY My back and shoulders hurt a lot due to always sitting and having to look around at multiple screens at various angles for my job, so I figured if this is good enough for Olympic athletes, it should be good for a 29-year-old workaholic, right?

thermally straighten hair I have naturally curly hair and I… hate it. Everyone else loves it, but I’ve never been able to style properly and to me, it isn’t worth it. I’d much rather spend the chunk of money for this treatment (plus Olaplex treatment) than keep having to worry about the heat damage from a hair straightener and my not holding and re-curling.

hold Crow Pose for 30 seconds I love yoga. It is the workout I am always willing to do. But, my balance still sucks. I’ve been doing this practice for years (on and off), and some days I can hold better than others, but I’m still super embarrassed by my lack of balance and strength at times. Crow pose has been the most difficult pose for me to even learn how to do, so now that I (kind of) know how get in the pose, I want to HOLD it. For 30 seconds, because I’m turning 30. It’s like a theme, or something.

pay off credit cards Thankfully my debt isn’t as large as some peoples I’ve heard of, but I still don’t like having it and would really rather not carry this with me into this next chapter of my life.

finish Kingdom Hearts I love video games, but I’m also really, really bad at them. I did finish the first Kingdom Hearts when it was still relatively new, but I never finished the second one with the release of the third one, I only started over. So, in my free time, I’m going to try and get the trilogy finished.

new passport My car got broken into a few years ago on New Years Eve in Kansas City, and I accidentally left my purse in my car while I was working. It was a fun surprise to come back to, and it took me WEEKS to realize my Passport was in my purse. So, this really is just to remind me to get a new Passport finally.

freelance Foley work The reason for my Zoom. Besides LIVE sound, I love creating the thing and editing the thing in post. I miss the work I did in college for audio projects, and if I could create a freelance business from refinding that love, that would just be the icing on top of it.

voice over reel Anyone who has met me in person knows for sure: I am LOUD. My natural volume is LOUD, my indoor voice is LOUD, my loud voice is EXCRUCIATING. But, it’s cute. And so is my laugh. And so are the random voices I can make. So, I’m going to use my unique voice to my advantage.

make YouTube video After discovering Jenna Marbles, I toyed with the idea of creating a YouTube channel but my anxiety got in the way and I never did. I really wish I would have just done it, so let’s film this list, how about?

go to Hawaii Besides Japan, there’s no place else I’d rather go than Hawaii. This year will all about saving up, getting the tickets, and then on October 5th, 2020: we land in Hawaii.

Thanks for keeping up! It’s going to be a busy, but fun, year. I literally cannot put my excitement into words, so let’s get this started.

Jessi

The Blondie

“Picasso had his pink period and his blue period. I am in my blonde period right now.”

High Hefner

Growing up, my parents very strict. Something I was always told I was never allowed to do, was color my hair – unnatural or natural. There were times when I got highlights when I begged for a change, but that was usually all. So, like all children of strict parents, once I got to college and was no longer living under their roof, it was time for my virgin hair to pop its cherry. I actually did sneak dye my hair a shade darker while in high school, and of course told my mom I used some sort of darken ing shampoo (another condition of strict-parenting), but when I added the first pink streak to my hair, I never wanted normal colored hair again.

Ever since, I’ve been almost any all shades. Being a “former” emo kid, I wanted to do every color Hayley Williams did. The bright red was hands down my favorite, and I had started a system of having my brown hair during the fall/winter, and my bright red during the spring/summer seasons. Eventually, it became a year round thing, and then I cut my hair into a pixie cut. For some reason, I just didn’t think the red looked as good on my short hair as it did when my hair was long. This was an added reason onto the eventual hair-chopping regret I gained a couple weeks after doing it, and by that time, I had decided to take it to the next step: shaving my sides. I mostly styled my short hair into a faux-hawk, so at this point I had said “fuck it” and shaved both sides. This was at the time when the one-sided-head-shave was a big trend, but I knew having only one side done would bother me, so I went and hacked both away. With having less hair than I ever had (didn’t have?) before, this was where I started experimenting with ALL the colors. Around this time was also when Hayley Williams created her hair color line, GoodDyeYoung, so I stocked my online cart up and started testing colors. I loved everything on the blue and green spectrum, but pink ultimately had my heart. I kept my pink mohawk for as long as I could, but eventually, my hair was just… fried. There was no life in it, the ends were trashed, and it just wasn’t vibrant, despite being bright pink. At this point, I decided it was time to face what I used to think was my biggest fear: shaving it all off.

After the shave (July 2018), I told myself that I would NOT add anything damaging to my hair before my 30th birthday. This meant I would have almost two years of not brightly coloring my hair, but for the health of my hair, I decided it was worth it. With going fully blonde, I discussed the process we would be doing with my hair stylist and worked in a way that wouldn’t fully damage my hair to the point where it’s going to stop growing until I shave it again.

SESSION 1

I can’t remember how old I was the last time I had highlights put in my hair, but it was a process I didn’t forget. It’s long and monotonous, but much better than throwing bleach all over and letting it strip everything.

Mid-session 1
After the first session of highlights

I was way more impressed with the results than I thought I would be, since I just imagined myself going lighter with different results and was paranoid of what could go wrong during the process. Thankfully, with shaving my head in July of 2018, my hair was extremely healthy, but it still was virginal. When I discovered, I ordered myself a thing of Overtone Color shampoo/deep conditioner, but for brown hair. I was missing my red, and was real curious to see what color I could achieve with their line for brown hair. I, personally, wasn’t a huge fan of the auburn-y color I had, and just let it wash out from there.

SESSION 2

When I showed up for my second color appointment, I wasn’t sure if we would do another round of highlights or just go for it and bleach it all. Given how well my hair lifted the first session, we decided to just go for it. I figured worst case scenario, I have purple shampoo and conditioner to help me with any issues that could arise before needing to add more bleach for evening the color out. Since I only used one coloring additive since shaving my head, we discovered a little bit of a pinkish hue wanted to stick around on the ends. Needing a cut anyways, we got the majority of them off and were more than impressed with the results. I was expecting a total of three sessions to get me to this point, but we were able to achieve the platinum status I was going for in just two. When I’m back from my trip to San Diego for the Zoo, I’ll be going through one more minor all-over bleach to really get everything the same, platinum blonde that my roots really took hold of. All the purple-infused supplies I’ve used since going blonde have helped tremendously, but I don’t expect them to take out the full pink-ness that just wants to hang on.

And, when I decide I am done being fully blonde, then I guess it’s just time to return to pink. Or maybe blue… Possibly red.

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The Sewing Machine

“A good use for me is to let me go away with my sewing machine and come back with some really new stuff.”

Betsey Johnson

My mom was always working on some type of craft when I was growing up, and always taking me to craft shows wether it was to help her with a booth or just to shop around ourselves. I grew up being a huge fan of DIY projects as a result of this, and I’ve lost count of the amount of Pinterest projects I’ve attempted myself. I started following more people who were cosplayers, either professionally or just for fun, and seeing some of the things they would make themselves always inspired me so much. Making a full outfit, though? I never learned how to use a sewing machine, mostly just the basics. It wasn’t from a lack of my mom trying to teach me, I was just a jackass who didn’t want to learn because I wanted to use my free time playing Sonic the Hedgehog.

One day, I made an online order to the webstore of my favorite band, blink-182. They were having a sale, so I threw a bunch of things in my cart in my size and made my order. When it arrived, I noticed the thing I was most excited for, was way too small. It was a pair of underwear with the smiley face logo all over, and since it was underwear I had just tried on, I wasn’t sure what to do with it. After a little bit of thinking, I remembered when the small corset purses were popular. I always wanted one like my older sisters had, but I was wasn’t allowed since I was 10 and my mom didn’t want me carrying a bag with literal titties around. This is my time, I thought, and I took a pair of scissors and cut the crotch out. I sewed the former crotch section back together, found an old one-piece bathing suit I knew didn’t fit, and made a make-shift purse liner. I hand-sewed everything, including the zipper, and was so proud of myself for not only successfully turning this pair of underwear into a purse, but that I didn’t waste any of these clothing items. My little purse has lasted me all these years since I made it, but I have had to go and fix some things from time to time. For being hand-sewn, it really impresses me that it’s stayed together.

Something I’ve always wanted to do with my life was to find a philanthropic cause to make a small “business” around. Literally the only reason I want to make money is to donate it to those who need help, because I’ve almost been in situations like that myself. After making my Panty Purse, it clicked that this was what I wanted to do. I was inspired by Blake Mycoskie of Toms Shoes years ago, and this was what I wanted my project to be: donating underwear to various shelters (homeless, womens, children’s, etc.) with each purse bought. The biggest issue? I don’t know how to sew, and just the thought of hand sewing even 20 purses makes my hands cramp up. If I had the ability to start making them using a sewing machine, though? I could only hope I would be unstoppable.

I learn best by doing. I can read instructions and memorize how the instructions say to do it, but unless I’m actually working with the item, my mind just won’t absorb it. For some reason, I had a major brain fart that Joann Fabrics offers various classes, and one of them is a sewing course. I packed up my sewing machine and picked out some cute fabric and was off to make a pillow.

Once I finally got the hang of things, it was a breeze. My main issues were threading the needle wrong the first time I did it, and a few times when I forgot to put down the Presser Foot, but it was nothing that I couldn’t figure out how to fix. I honestly thought it would be a lot harder than it ended up being, but I’m still glad I decided to take this particular class. The instructor was so kind, and has been making her own clothes since she was in middle school, which I always find fascinating. Thankfully I haven’t gone as crazy with buying clothes lately as I used too, but knowing that I could make a couple outfits or even just being able to fix things will make life much easier in general.

Originally, I wanted to check off “Learn to Sew” after successfully making adjustments to a shirt I own that I never wear anymore, but it turns out my sewing machine is missing its foot pedal and Singer no longer makes my model. So, since I successfully made a pillow, I’m adding my check now. While I’m on the prowl for a Singer Vivo 1004 supported foot pedal (and, more than likely, power cord as well as we couldn’t tell if my power cord was bad or if the other Singer pedal just wasn’t supported), I’m going to gather up more projects and supplies to begin my purses, and use those as subjects for different YouTube videos.

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The Escape Room

“The problems of puzzles are very near the problems of life, our whole life is solving puzzles. … The Cube’s problem depends just on you. You can solve it independently. But to find happiness in life, you’re not independent. That’s the only big difference.” 

Erno Rubik

Having never done an Escape Room before, I wasn’t sure what exactly to prepare for. I really enjoy puzzles, and what better puzzle is there than being locked in a room without being able to leave it until you either solve everything, or your time runs out? (As according to state laws, you are able to leave the room if need be, but no one from our group had to do that.) When looking up Escape Rooms in the Sacramento area, I found Escape Sacramento, which is billed as Sacramento’s Original Escape Room, and noticed two themes that caught my immediate attention: demons and aliens. Knowing that I would enjoy either room, I thought on it and decided we would go with the demon room. I asked a couple coworkers who I figured would make good teammates with their partners, and our reservation was made.

When we showed up, we noticed a leaderboard on the wall. Our room, The Seance, had a record time of 22 minutes. So, naturally, our goal then became to get it done in 20 minutes and use only three of our five clues. Ah, to be young and naive.

The Seance room had two parts, and way more tiny boxes than I was thinking we would have. I’m no expert in tarot, but thankfully I knew enough to be able to apply that knowledge with a table in the room. The room was very dark, which made sense for the theme, but was a total disadvantage in general. Our main issue ended up being that we had figured a lot of things out, but just not how to apply it properly to the locks. When we very clearly missed our 20 minute mark, our arms started waving for our clues to be sent. It was frustrating to find out from these clues what our issues were, but if that isn’t the point of mind games, I’m not sure what is.

With 10 minutes left, a set of candles lit up and we heard the second room open up. We rushed in there, not expecting an entirely full new set of games instead of just a couple extra. When our time ran out and we were waiting to be let out, we still looked around to see what else we could have done. The director came in, and told us how impressed he actually was, since not many people even make into the second room, especially first timers. We were given the option to have the rest of the puzzle shown to us or we were welcome to try it at a later time, but I knew it would bother me not knowing the answers. Thankfully, the rest of the group felt the same way, and we were helped along the last legs of the puzzle to escape.

Of course, it’s always frustrating knowing just how close you were, but there were so many things that we would have never even thought of. It would have been awesome to get a small time extension when we made it into the second room, but that just means we should have figured out our puzzles faster. It was so nice to be working on figuring out solutions for the fun of it, and not in a stressful environment that depends on us needing our full attention and seriousness. Even when we failed, it became a new joke about how we just need to use our minds better. Once we figured out there was no set solution to these puzzles, we were able to start really climbing out of the box to think of new solutions.

The next time, we WILL escape. From the aliens.

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The Cupping Therapy

“Relax and refuse to let worry and stress rule your life. There is always a solution to every problem. Things will work out for you when you take time to relax, refresh, restore and recharge your soul.”

Lailah Gifty Akita

Since finding out about cupping therapy from the Olympic swimmers who made it popular in western culture a few years ago, I really wanted to try it. Ever since I was little, I had various back problems that thankfully didn’t grow with me. My favorite form of exercise is yoga, and the last year I lived in Kansas City I started seeing a chiropractor. Massages are something I like to try and treat myself to at least once a year, and I always request the deepest pressure possible for all the knots that get stuck back there. Acupuncture is the last thing on my list to try (now), and it only didn’t make the list because I just end up psyching myself out of it, so it’s just a self process I’m working through on that one. Not only is my job a high-stress environment, but I’m sitting almost the whole time while looking around at various screens. Not only was I excited about the benefits from cupping therapy, but I was excited for the process of the cupping.

My most painful zones are my lower back and shoulders. It’s where all my stress goes and camps out, so along with sitting on my ass almost all day and being an anxiety-riddled homo sapien, it’s always just a hard mass of muscle weighing down everything else. Since I’ve never had any type of cupping service before, I went with a basic 30-minute dry appointment. Some places use fire for the suction of the cups, but mine were done using a hand pump and what I figured would be a good starting point. My therapist started with suctioning various parts of my whole back for only a few seconds, and then setting up the cups along my upper back and shoulders for ten minutes, and then my lower back and side of my hips for another ten. I entered a total state of relaxation, yet was able to notice when the blood circulation was, well, circulating “in” certain cups. It was a weird feeling at first that caught me off guard, but I grew to enjoy it whenever it popped because not only did it feel cool, but it also let me know it was somewhat working.

I walked to my appointment and back, and could feel the difference IMMEDIATELY. This was the first week that my yoga class had made changes so I no longer had class that night, and treated myself to going to bed early. The next day, I woke up feeling wonderful. I slept so well, and felt more energized than I had in a while. This was the day I had scheduled for my first session of GOING BLONDE, so even on my day off I was doing what I’m normally doing: sitting. But(t), there was no issue. My lower back had no issues, and my neck didn’t feel any extra strain that it usually does.

I would definitely go back for another cupping service, and trying various forms of other therapies with it. It’s been two days since I received this service now, and I still haven’t felt any pain in my lower back or shoulders. It’s so exciting to me that all it took for me to feel this much better was just a few cups sucking on my skin for a few minutes, and it’s been fun looking at all the spots on my back. If you’ve ever thought about the service, it’s something I would highly suggest, even just once in your life.

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The YouTube Video

“When I looked at life through the camera, I felt like I could finally see it.”

Katherine Howe

Being a 90’s baby, I’ve been through countless technological advancements. The most fascinating, to me, being the internet and the ways we’ve learned to communicate with people around the world and in our own backyards. Many people like to knock the millennial generation by the amount of time we spend on our phones especially, without taking into the consideration the countless things one can do with that brick of wires and glass in their hand. Of course the internet isn’t always the cheeriest of places, but with the good comes the bad and I still believe there’s a lot more good out there.

One of these places where a lot of debate happens over the state of the internet is YouTube. The first video to ever be posted on the video sharing site happened in April 23, 2005, by the site’s co-founder. I was 15 at the time, getting my entertainment from Ebaum’s World (The End of the World, Potter Puppet Pals, and The One Ring To Rule Them All to name a few), so to me, YouTube wasn’t that big of a revelation. Honestly, I probably thought less of it since it was your own footage, like I wanted to see someone else’s home movie? No, thank you. Of course, we all know what YouTube has become, and you think back to those moments and remember your condescending nature like “huh, I guess that could have been something”.

Filming any kind of video for YouTube “fame” didn’t become an idea to me until I entered college in the fall of 2009. A dorm-mate I quickly befriended had her own camera, and we would film little clips of the “Hudson Hall Hunter”, named after our dorm and me doing a terrible Australian accent and making commentary on late-night happenings in our dorm. It never went anywhere due to our lives becoming so busy, and me accidentally getting drunk and spilling Mountain Dew on her laptop (sorry, roomie ☹️).

Being a broadcasting student, I have put videos on YouTube, but they were only projects and nothing I voluntarily made for the platform. Especially since graduating, the thought of “becoming a YouTube star” as I got older just seemed more ridiculous as the years went on. Who would want to watch an almost-30-year-old try to become the next Jenna Marbles? “Act like an adult and move on,” read the imaginary comments in my head, psyching myself out before ever even taking the plunge. Anxiety works in weird ways, and it’s very loud and very persuasive. In a way, I am glad I ended up waiting as long as I have to finally take a dive into this pool. I know a lot of people can agree that they are also their own worst critics, and in the past few years my self-esteem has taken some hits and I honestly don’t know how any negative comments could have affected me. Now, I know anything negative is a just a simple opinion that really holds nothing against me, but everything against them. My journey isn’t going to be for everyone, and I’m sure there are a lot of things people want to scream at me for wanting to do, which is why I highly encourage anyone who wants to do something similar, to DO IT! If you’re scared no one will be there to support you, this is your friendly reminder you already have two fans: yourself and me.

I decided to release this video on January 1st, 2020, because I’m a sucker for the New Year and the symbolism it holds. I fully agree that any time is a great time to change your life, but the New Year is like that spa day at the end of a stressful week: a reset from the norm. The holidays can be an especially depressing time for some, and I find joy in realizing how close a reset is on its way to arriving. Even though I started things on this list before the start of the new year, almost all of it is happening in 2020 and since I’m an October baby, only a couple months between when I turned 29 and the start of the New Years, and we all know how busy the holidays can be, bucket list website/blog/vlog or not. The symbolism just felt right for kicking off the New Year, and the last year in my 20’s.

So, I hope you enjoy my first YouTube video. I’m currently using iMovie for my video editing, and Audacity for audio editing with royalty free music and sound effects. Chops, my tattoo artist for The Mystery Tattoo also got some footage, and thankfully he gave them to me to add to the video. I haven’t done any editing in a few years (and none with iMovie), and it feels so good to get back into. I was not aware of the time limit that YouTube places on unverified accounts, so The List is broken up into two parts with The Mystery tattoo video scheduled to be released shortly (so you can get right to it when you’re done with the first two!).

THE LIST – Part 1THE LIST – Part 2

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The Mystery Tattoo

“The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the oldest and strongest kind of fear is fear of the unknown.”

H.P. Lovecraft

One of my life goals is be a heavily tattooed person. I love art, and having permanent art on my body makes me beyond happy. I’ve been working a lot on my skin lately, that it’s become kind of overwhelming. I know there are some people on my life (hi, mom and dad!) that would love for that to mean I’m at a stopping point, but of course I’m not! Sometimes, you just need someone else to plan something for you, so why not make it a literal life-lasting surprise?

I have no judgement towards people who don’t have tattoos, whether it be for job purposes, personal reasons, fear of needles, or a fear of commitment. I remember before I started getting tattoos myself, saying to myself: “I’ll ONLY get tattoos that have meaning!” My very first tattoo was a mustache on my finger. I really stuck hard to that plan, didn’t I? The more tattoos I started getting, the more I realized that sometimes, you just want something that has no meaning besides making you smile whenever you see it. I say this, and I’m usually met with negative feedback, but one of the best parts of life is taking the seriousness out of something and just doing it. The point of my tattoos are to make me happy, and despite being told that I’ll regret them, I still don’t have one I regret. I have so many things that were never part of my plans, some things from my plans that had to be changed, and a LOT of nixed ideas from my life-list of tattoos. One of the best quotes I’ve seen about tattoos is “if your body is a temple, you might as well stain the glass”.

With this particular shop, you’re given three options: a $60 design, $80 design, or $100 design with the option of a $20 charge to re-draw if you don’t like your choice. On the off chance I was getting a design I wouldn’t get excited about having, I decided to go with the $80 design. Thankfully, I LOVED the design pulled. I had never really been drawn to any kind of butterfly tattoo, but I loved how the design reminded me of an Oni, a demon of Japanese folklore. I have various themes for different parts of my body, and right away I knew it would make a great addition to my black and grey work leg. I almost went for the back of the knee, but remembered an idea that will possibly need the whole back of my thigh, so I decided on the front. It fit so perfectly by the gasmask I have already, it really was like the design was meant for me.

I have absolutely no regrets about getting a mystery tattoo, and maybe next year I’ll grab a design from the other selections and see what else ends up on my temple.

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